how much of an impact my time overseas has had till I'm much older.
This is very true but I do intend on sharing with all of you the
lessons I learn in the meantime.
Every single human being is wonderfully and fearfully made by God.
Like snowflakes no two people are alike. We all learn, talk, and see
things differently. I like to gather as much information I possibly
can about someone or something so I can create an acurate evaluation
of it. I do this with everything, the world, my friends, school
subjects, and even God. As I'm
sure you can imagine my way gets in the way alot of the time, it's
impossible to know everything about something and sometimes this
little fact escapes my mind. I've lived my whole life putting things
in neat and organized boxes and what I'm realizing is that in doing
so, in believing I know all there is to know, I'm actually limiting
myself. I'm actually putting restrictions on everything and if it
doesn't fit in my little box it's thrown out or ignored in my case.
A lot of the restrictions are created from past experiences, which
isn't fair for those in my future or present. For instance, I haven't
had the most reliable group of best friends in my past. To make a long
story short best friends are like chapters in my life, numerous and
ranging length in their existence. So, when I became really close with
a girl from show choir, I guarded myself a lot. I refused to call her
my best friend and didn't want to let her in. Eventually one night she
texted me reminding me that ages not any of those girls and I needed
to trust her. I did and till this day she's my best friend. But
because my friend doesn't fit the descriptions of my friends in the
past I tend to always resort back to my fear of losing a best friend
all over again. While in nz we talked every single day and still when
I returned from nz I was still afraid of losing such a great
friendship. I wasn't trusting her because my friends in the past were
trustworthy. But all along she was there reminding me that I could
trust her, she didn't walk away when it would be easiest she stayed
and refused to fit the restrictions of my friends before.
I was limiting my life experiences because I was allowing my past to
control my present and future. Your past isn't bad to look at
sometimes it keeps you from making horrible mistakes all over again
but other finds it keeps you from experiencing some of the most pure
things in life.
Get rid if your boxes there is no room for them in this round world.
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